Sometimes when I say “I’m okay”, what I really want is for someone to hold my hand, look me in the eyes and say “I know that you’re not okay, here is $1000.00”.
#this is the essence of louis for me#this mix of overt outward invincible behaviour that cannot be controlled#that outgoing energy that they’ve actually said is what stops their band from being boring#but he has these things in his life that he knows are his flaws#you can tell that they bother him because they’re in the forefront of his mind even years later#and he has this side to him that is so vulnerable so worried about being weak#where these faults in him make him worried like he might let someone down#but he fights against them he transparently tries to make them his strengths#the shitty behaviour in school where he was no doubt out of control became the essence of the band#they even said without louis they’d be the most boring band in the world#and that outgoing behaviour gave the boys time to come out of their shells and get stable footing during the x factor#and his audition that he keeps apologizing for because it bothers him#but he has worked so hard on his voice and now he’s written an album#the vulnerable side he tries to make stronger so he doesn’t let anyone down (x)
19 Days ‘til Christmas: The Holiday (2006)You know, I was just thinking. Why would I ever leave before New Year’s Eve? That makes no sense at all. I mean, you didn’t exactly ask me out, but you did say you loved me, so I’m thinking I’ve got a date. If you’ll have me.
Theme #2 has been released
Oh and go read my fanfic you will cry :))
IM WRITING A STORY AS OF RIGHT NOW I WONT BE ON AS MUCH AND I CANT WORK QUEUE SO